tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34279093222534158152024-03-19T08:57:34.071-04:00Believing in Hope and LoveWelcome to the journey of our family while we face an unknown future for our unborn daughter that has Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome and a chromosome 17 abnormality. We are living in hope...Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13408810744616327390noreply@blogger.comBlogger374125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3427909322253415815.post-5365810266951463022015-01-14T21:14:00.000-05:002015-01-14T21:14:09.276-05:0010 Things I've Learned Since Losing our Daughter... <div class="text_exposed_root text_exposed" id="id_54b72067191b74800382095" style="display: inline;">
10 Things that I've learned since losing our daughter Lily Grace since she passed away in my arms 2 years ago (this picture is from that moment..):<br />1. every single person grieves differently<br /><br />2. that just because some people are quieter abo<span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline;">ut their grief, that doesn't mean they are doing better than someone who opens up about their grieving journey.. You're mislead if you think that.. some people don't speak up because society is too uncomfortable to hear or society starts judging them or for any other personal reason & that's okay but just know that one way (quiet or open) isn't better or worse than the other..<br /><br />3. that grieving parents do have to learn how to live this new life without all of their children.. their new normal...<br /><br />4. that people mean well when they respond to someone after hearing of their loss but really... some things really shouldn't be said.. (Please don't feel the need to fix us or the situation & it's usually better to keep it simple & say you're sorry.. and if you mean it then "I'm sorry.. I'll never forget ___..)<br /><br />5. That losing a child can make you see the world differently or at least it did for me<br /><br />6. That I don't believe in the stages of grieving in the sense that it follows a structured exact process of grieving... it's grief & it ebbs and flows... you never know what small bump could bounce you around "the stages"..<br /><br />7. Don't judge the way a person grieves as long as they are not harmful to themselves or others.. heck I carried my daughters toy sea horse with me in my purse for at least the first year after she passed.. it was a comfort... I wasn't crazy just like a pacifier is a comfort to babies.. sometimes an item that belonged to the person, symbolic jewelry, or special items surrounding the situation can become very meaningful or comforting during the grieving journey...<br /><br />8. Back to #7... don't talk like I'm not there.. whisper as I'm standing there "she lost her child or she's the one that lost her child".. especially as you introduce us or talk behind our backs about how we're doing.. we are the best judge of that... ask us<br /><br />9. I can't speak for everyone but I can for many I think... say their name & don't forget them- especially on holidays, their birthdays, special dates (I.e. Would have been their first day of school or a graduation, etc).<br /><br />10.. the constant trying to prove to others that we're okay can be exhausting or trying to prove that our grieving is normal... be thankful that you don't understand & you may think you understand but unless you have walked out paths then you DON'T understand.. be thankful.. <i class="_4-k1 img sp_RCoVkQHF2rI sx_f4d64f" style="background-image: url(https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/rsrc.php/v2/yn/r/yrS4ZGdl_4R.png); background-position: -238px -186px; background-repeat: no-repeat; background-size: auto; display: inline-block; height: 16px; vertical-align: -3px; width: 16px;"></i></span></div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13408810744616327390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3427909322253415815.post-37201804272774703302015-01-14T21:10:00.002-05:002015-01-14T21:10:54.552-05:00Awkward silence... <span style="background-color: white; color: #141823; font-family: Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;">Quickest way to end a conversation or make it awkward... Someone hearing that you had a child pass away.. </span><br style="background-color: white; color: #141823; font-family: Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #141823; font-family: Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #141823; font-family: Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;">This didn't happen today but I read something about how a grieving parents journey is so complicated because we are living the journ</span><span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #141823; display: inline; font-family: Helvetica, Arial, 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 20px;">ey of many peoples worst fear.. the fear of losing a child... It's so unnatural.. not how things should be..<br /><br />I heard today about someone getting their story published (their child was sick).. but then their child past away so the company/ hospital decided to not publish their story because it didn't have that happy ending.. so sometimes our stories are not always publishable because they don't give people hope of a positive ending or when people are meeting you & ask about your children & it gets to a point where they ask specifics (happens to me a lot because I have 5.. "Oh wow.. What ages..?)..<br /><br />19..12..9.. 8.. & our youngest is in heaven.. "Oh.. Um.. sorry to hear that.."<br /><br />Awkward silence.. It's not an ending that we picked.. but it's our life & our reality.. yes our child died but our stories are worth hearing.. our stories are pretty remarkable actually.. sad but amazing on so many levels.... <i class="_4-k1 img sp_RCoVkQHF2rI sx_f4d64f" style="background-image: url(https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/rsrc.php/v2/yn/r/yrS4ZGdl_4R.png); background-position: -238px -186px; background-repeat: no-repeat; background-size: auto; display: inline-block; height: 16px; vertical-align: -3px; width: 16px;"></i>.. I do understand both sides though but your moment of being uncomfortable is nothing compared to our lifetime of loss... just wanted to share my thoughts</span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13408810744616327390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3427909322253415815.post-30947183112516920922014-12-27T15:14:00.002-05:002014-12-27T15:14:31.489-05:00I'm back... :) I have been missing in action for awhile now but I'm back.. 2014 was a very rough year for me.. no denying the reality that my daughter really died. I had big intentions on taking so many hairbow donations like I did the first year after losing Lily.. we went back to Kosair Children's Hospital where Lily passed away at least 4-5 times after we lost Lily but then 2014 came which was 1 year and a few months after losing Lily and it was very hard.. I can't explain it..<br />
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I also had people reading my blog that shouldn't have been reading.. I can't go in to detail about that either but that is the biggest reason why I stopped blogging and made my blog private for one year. I say "shouldn't have been reading" because yes it is public so anyone can read it but they were not reading it with good intentions. People started using it as a negative thing for gossip which is beyond my comprehension. I am a grieving parent who started this blog for our daughters journey. I never thought our journey would end in losing our daughter or I would have kept my blog quieter. My blog went from a means of communicating her birth, surgery, and progress to my outlet of emotions as I journey through the life of a grieving parent. <br />
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Here I am though.. I started Weight Watchers in September 2013 and I am still going to meetings. I have lost about 45 pounds (I say about because we just had Christmas week so I am up a few pounds.. :) ha ha). I also started running in 2014 and I dedicate my runs to our daughter Lily, our living children here on earth, for all children gone too soon, and for CHD (congenital heart defect) awareness. I did some 5k's, a 10k, 10 miler, and my first ever half marathon... it was incredible. I am still running and I did 2.5 miles today as a matter of fact.. :)<br />
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Running and Weight Watchers have been a healthy outlet for me along with writing. Expressing my thoughts, emotions, and grieving (good, bad & ugly side to being a grieving parent) has helped me with my journey of loss. This will be a journey that I will live with for the rest of my life so... read if you want.. but only read if you have good intentions.. if you have not lost a child then you will not understand so don't judge but just be supportive, learn, and be a part of the journey.. not against it. Being against my journey only makes it worse.. think about it. If you have questions then please ask me directly rather than discuss, assume, and interpret things. <br />
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At this point in my life I am still a busy working Mom on a weight loss journey while running for a good outlet and writing as I go... join me if you want... I will talk about all of the above... Are you ready?? :) Welcome back everyone.. :) <br />
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***This picture was taken on Christmas Day 2014... just a few days ago.. I just loved how the light came in on the picture.. I always feel like it's Lily giving us a sign from heaven and the light in this picture was amazing.. it was all around me on Christmas... Writing is good for me and it feels good to write on this blog again.. Thanks everyone!<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13408810744616327390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3427909322253415815.post-89466538438884092092013-08-11T01:13:00.003-04:002013-08-11T01:13:45.522-04:00One year ago today...I was in labor to have you sweet Lily Grace.. <span style="font-size: large;">My last post... before I lay down.. </span><br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13408810744616327390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3427909322253415815.post-23862868321370739972013-08-10T11:13:00.004-04:002013-08-10T11:14:22.540-04:00One year ago today... admitted to hospital to have our Lily Grace<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">One year ago today around 4 pm, my doctor sent me straight to the hospital to be induced right after my checkup... </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">I can't believe she will be one tomorrow..</span><span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #333333; display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;"><br /><br />Please remember Lily tomorrow.. here is a link to her remembrance: <a href="https://www.facebook.com/events/143658955840791/" rel="nofollow" style="color: #3b5998; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;">https://www.facebook.com/<wbr></wbr><span class="word_break" style="display: inline-block;"></span>events/143658955840791/</a></span><br />
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**<span data-reactid=".r[fcoy].[1][4][1]{comment639576076053373_2141842}.[0].[right].[0].[left].[0].[0].[0][2].[0].[0]" style="background-color: #edeff4; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 14px;">For those that want to print their own Lily Grace balloon tags.. here is the link </span><a class="" data-reactid=".r[fcoy].[1][4][1]{comment639576076053373_2141842}.[0].[right].[0].[left].[0].[0].[0][2].[0].[1]" href="http://www.slideshare.net/elzya/lily-grace-balloon-tag-august-2013?fb_action_ids=10152084958445828&fb_action_types=og.likes&fb_source=aggregation&fb_aggregation_id=288381481237582" rel="nofollow" style="background-color: #edeff4; color: #3b5998; cursor: pointer; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 14px; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">http://www.slideshare.net/elzya/lily-grace-balloon-tag-august-2013?fb_action_ids=10152084958445828&fb_action_types=og.likes&fb_source=aggregation&fb_aggregation_id=288381481237582</a>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13408810744616327390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3427909322253415815.post-6735890452810276242013-08-10T10:21:00.001-04:002013-08-10T10:21:28.231-04:00Balloon tags for Lily's 1st birthday balloon release.. I shared this on Lily's Facebook page on Thursday, August 8th:<br />
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13408810744616327390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3427909322253415815.post-78487227430871114282013-08-08T22:28:00.001-04:002013-08-08T22:28:14.004-04:00Sad night ;(Sad night... her first birthday is so close. Ricky, the kids, and I went to visit Lily at the cemetery... sad night is all that I can say... I would never wish this upon anyone.. not even the most evil person in the world. <br />
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That's all that I want right now.. ALL of my kids.. that's what I want..Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13408810744616327390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3427909322253415815.post-4653018603067147942013-08-05T21:48:00.002-04:002013-08-05T21:49:08.787-04:00August is here.. ugh.. that means that all of the big "one year"..firsts are coming up this month :( <span style="color: #333333; font-family: lucida grande, tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif;"><span style="line-height: 17px;">This is how I felt on August 2nd (this was not shared on my public Facebook page): </span></span><br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13408810744616327390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3427909322253415815.post-83710673513670864122013-08-05T21:38:00.003-04:002013-08-05T21:38:33.628-04:00Your first birthday is almost here Lily Grace..Posted this on Lily's Facebook page Sunday, August 4th: <div>
<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">One year ago today.. </span><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">I was just one week away from having Lily.. It was a time full of excitement, anxiety, and simply just being nervous about what the journey ahead would be like (with Lily's surgeries, caring for her medical needs, spl</span><span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #333333; display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">itting time between home & the hospital, etc..)<br /><br />Our path took a different turn.. BUT I would NOT trade having Lily for anything.. She is worth it!!<br /><br />So next Sunday is Lily's first birthday.. My family and I will be releasing balloons in her memory.. Kind of like sending birthday balloons to heaven for Lily to catch <i class="_4-k1 img sp_er534k sx_3c8e5b" style="background-image: url(https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/rsrc.php/v2/y4/r/8ejVUcUqZKI.png); background-position: 0px -1053px; background-size: auto; display: inline-block; height: 16px; vertical-align: -3px; width: 16px;"></i><br /><br />Who wants to release balloons for Lily? <i class="_4-k1 img sp_er534k sx_3c8e5b" style="background-image: url(https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/rsrc.php/v2/y4/r/8ejVUcUqZKI.png); background-position: 0px -1053px; background-size: auto; display: inline-block; height: 16px; vertical-align: -3px; width: 16px;"></i> I'm hoping to have a tag made to attach to the balloon so whoever gets the balloon learns about Lily..<br /><br />Then on her one year angelversary I want to release lanterns so "Lanterns for Lily" on August 29th.. I'll post more about both dates soon <i class="_4-k1 img sp_er534k sx_3c8e5b" style="background-image: url(https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/rsrc.php/v2/y4/r/8ejVUcUqZKI.png); background-position: 0px -1053px; background-size: auto; display: inline-block; height: 16px; vertical-align: -3px; width: 16px;"></i><br /><br />**Also... we will be doing a hairbow party in memory of Lily so if anyone else wants to do a hairbow party that would be great too <i class="_4-k1 img sp_er534k sx_d20726" style="background-image: url(https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/rsrc.php/v2/y4/r/8ejVUcUqZKI.png); background-position: 0px -730px; background-size: auto; display: inline-block; height: 16px; vertical-align: -3px; width: 16px;"></i> and if you would consider donating those hairbows to "The Lily Grace Project".. that would be SO helpful as we will be going back to Kosair Children's Hospital this month to make in person hairbow donations in memory of Lily <i class="_4-k1 img sp_er534k sx_91fad0" style="background-image: url(https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/rsrc.php/v2/y4/r/8ejVUcUqZKI.png); background-position: 0px -662px; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; background-size: auto; display: inline-block; height: 16px; vertical-align: -3px; width: 16px;"></i></span></div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13408810744616327390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3427909322253415815.post-2894313018802923322013-08-05T21:36:00.002-04:002013-08-05T21:36:40.891-04:00Why I share my grieving process..<div class="userContentWrapper aboveUnitContent" data-ft="{"tn":"K"}" style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 14px; margin-bottom: 15px; margin-top: 15px;">
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Thought I'd share this because some people don't understand why I share my grief online (Lily's Facebook page: Never Forget Lily Grace, this blog, etc) or why I'm a part of online grieving support groups.. It's just too much to keep inside for one thing and sharing Lily along with my complete journey of<span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline;"> her diagnosis, having her, and sadly losing her.. It helps me to share!<br /><br />People need to remember though that just because I share my grief in words online doesn't mean I'm living that way 24/7.. That makes no sense..<br /><br />Getting things off my chest helps me to function.. My words on here are not a reflection of how I am 24/7.. It's just a glimpse into moments.. if that makes sense.. I always miss her.. every minute of the day but you just live with that grief just like so many of you live with your grief... you have it.. It's there & it will remain there forever in one way or another. There are good & bad days, hours, minutes, seconds... but you are making it & functioning..<br /><br />I'm no different.. I'm just open about my grief.. That's all ❤ (Next part is from a Facebook group called: Silent Grief- Child Loss Support):</span></div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13408810744616327390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3427909322253415815.post-36111748152492312192013-08-05T21:34:00.005-04:002013-08-05T21:34:39.913-04:00What to say to a grieving person...<div class="userContentWrapper aboveUnitContent" data-ft="{"tn":"K"}" style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 14px; margin-bottom: 15px; margin-top: 15px;">
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<span class="userContent">Isn't this the truth ...<br /><br />Please learn from this (I've written about this before too)..<br /><br />If someone loses a child then say "I'm sorry", "I don't know what to say" (that's even better than what most people say), "I'm here for you"..<br /><br /><span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline;">Here's what I like the most: "I'm sorry, I'll never forget XXX".. So for me "I'm sorry, I'll never forget Lily"..<br /><br />We have an overwhelming, anxiety causing, HUGE fear when our child passes away that "what if people forget them".. For me "what if people forget Lily Grace"..<br /><br />That is a horrible, horrible thought.. For me.. Lily means the world to me & so many people didn't get to meet her because her heart was so sick and she was so young..... So that's exactly why I started this page..<br /><br />Don't say "Be positive", "Don't worry..", "God needed another angel", "it's Gods plan", "she's no longer suffering", and On & On.. Please stick to what I said up there.. I know the majority of comments from others are meant from a good place but.. sometimes it can make things worse.. We are just not in a good place to hear those things..<br /><br />YOU CAN'T ...explain it or reason it away. You don't know so why guess or try to figure it out? A child dying (at any age) makes no sense.. NONE.. No need to rationalize or analyze it..<br /><br />Please learn from this.. Please read... Please share.... (below is from FB page: Silent Grief- Child Loss Support):</span></span></div>
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<span data-ft="{"tn":"K"}">Sometimes people will say things to bereaved parents that hurt so much, but the intent was to sincerely help. They will make comments like, "Time heals all things. At least you had some time with your child. Think of the fun times together -- don't remember his/her death. Focus on the future, not the past. This was done for a reason -- look at what all you've learned." And, on and on and on <span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline;">it goes. What is really needed to help those grieving the loss of a child are fewer words and more shared tears, listening ears, and a much more supportive friendship. When a child dies, our world as we knew it is forever changed. Missing our child is forever. Time doesn't heal those things. Listenening, non-judgmental ears are a blessing and a comfort. A person will NEVER know what it feels like to miss a child so much you want to die until you've been in that situation. Therefore, others have no reason and no right to tell the bereaved how they should or should not grieve the loss of their child. Child loss is a pain that cannot be explained in human terms. It hurts too much!</span></span></div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13408810744616327390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3427909322253415815.post-47706787682777985702013-08-05T21:33:00.001-04:002013-08-05T21:33:29.925-04:00Reminders to check on a grieving person... Posted this on August 1st on Lily's FB page: <div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13408810744616327390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3427909322253415815.post-31702156095487954712013-08-02T20:43:00.002-04:002013-08-02T20:43:19.201-04:00Best song for someone grieving "Dancing in the Sky"<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">**The MOST beautiful song.. so worth your time and please share** </span><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">PLEASE take the time to listen.. it will mean a lot to you and someone else.. ♥</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">"What does it look like in heaven</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">Is it peaceful.. is it free like they say.. </span><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;">Does the sun</span><span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #333333; display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 18px;"> shine bright forever..<br />Have your fears and your pain gone away...<br /><br />I hope you are dancing in the sky..<br />I hope you are singing in the angels choir..<br />I hope the angels know what they have..<br />I bet it is so nice since you arrived...<br /><br />Now tell me what do you do up in heaven..<br />Are your days filled with love and light.."</span><br />
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On 7/29/13 I shared: July 29th was exactly 11 months from when my sweet Lily Grace passed away.. I shared this poem, talked about The 11th Lily Grace Challenge (where you do something nice for someone else), etc.. here it is:<br />
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Today at 3:30 pm my daughter Lily Grace will be gone for 11 months....<br />
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The time keeps passing by just like it does for so many other parents that have lost their child or for someone that has lost a parent, sibling, friend, spouse, etc..<br />
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Today, will you please do something nice in memory of my daughter and so many other people gone too soon? If so, please click this link to join "The 11th Lil<span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline;">y Grace Challenge" <a href="https://www.facebook.com/events/491521797592965/" rel="nofollow" style="color: #3b5998; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;">https://www.facebook.com/<wbr></wbr><span class="word_break" style="display: inline-block;"></span>events/491521797592965/</a><br /><br />Thank you and this photo is worth repeating... <i class="_4-k1 img sp_er534k sx_d20726" style="background-image: url(https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/rsrc.php/v2/y4/r/8ejVUcUqZKI.png); background-position: 0px -730px; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; background-size: auto; display: inline-block; height: 16px; vertical-align: -3px; width: 16px;"></i> I hope other grieving parents find this picture meaningful too.. God Bless you and your families... Life is short and it can change in the blink of an eye.. Please be nice to each other and Let the Lily Grace Challenge begin <i class="_4-k1 img sp_er534k sx_91fad0" style="background-image: url(https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/rsrc.php/v2/y4/r/8ejVUcUqZKI.png); background-position: 0px -662px; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; background-size: auto; display: inline-block; height: 16px; vertical-align: -3px; width: 16px;"></i></span></div>
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On July 29th I also shared this:<br />
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Eleven months ago today around 3:15 pm on August 29, 2012 the caring staff at Kosair Children's Hospital unhooked you from machines to be placed in my arms..<br /><br />In my arms I would hold you as you looked around and looked into my eyes & your <span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline;">Dads eyes..<br /><br />At 3:30 pm you officially closed your eyes & took your last breath in my arms..<br /><br />Never forgotten.. Forever loved.. Always remembered..<br /><br />RIP sweet Lily Grace 8/11/12 - 8/29/12<br /><br />Thank you to everyone participating in The Lily Grace Challenge.. It's never too late to do something nice for someone else.. Today, tomorrow, and forever... <i class="_4-k1 img sp_er534k sx_3c8e5b" style="background-image: url(https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/rsrc.php/v2/y4/r/8ejVUcUqZKI.png); background-position: 0px -1053px; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; background-size: auto; display: inline-block; height: 16px; vertical-align: -3px; width: 16px;"></i></span></div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13408810744616327390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3427909322253415815.post-19340393801945109132013-08-02T20:37:00.001-04:002013-08-02T20:37:18.221-04:00Lily was actually a part of me.. she can't be forgotten.. I can't move on from her..Post on Lily's Facebook page from July 24th:<br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">Does society ever ask or wonder if a person is over the loss of their spouse or parent yet? Or if they've bounced back from losing their spouse or parent??? I don't think so or not from what I've ever seen.. </span><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">Does society ever wonder that </span><span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #333333; display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">about a parent that loses their child? People say "losing a child is the ultimate loss" yet their words or actions speak the opposite of that when judging how quickly a parent should be over their loss or even how a grieving parent grieves..<br /><br />Just for the record.. I'm doing ok... I'm just expressing myself on behalf of so many misunderstood grieving parents..<br /><br />Sometimes people think that when a person expresses their grief that they are "stuck" like that all day and night.. That is a total misperception..<br /><br />Expressing yourself allows a release so you can move forward or function like everyone else..<br /><br />Our grief or grieving process doesn't define how we are living but rather it's a part of the journey that we are on because we suffered a big loss.. A loss that we will NEVER "get over" or "bounce back" from..<br /><br />It's quite ridiculous to think that a parent will get over the loss of their child.. you wouldn't expect a child to get over losing their parent or a spouse to get over a husband or wife that passed away..<br /><br />Whether you created your child or adopted your child.. your child was interwoven into your life FOREVER... they will never disappear...<br /><br />Grieving parents learn to "adjust" to a new life without their child.. they won't bounce back or move on.. They just learn new ways of living & to expect anything different is crazy..<br /><br />We are not crazy... we are in a learning process.. I hope you never understand our journey & always remember to not judge others when you have not walked a mile in their shoes..<br /><br />You can speculate and make assumptions but that doesn't make you more knowledgable about our situation.. it's just a guess.. that's all <i class="_4-k1 img sp_er534k sx_3c8e5b" style="background-image: url(https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/rsrc.php/v2/y4/r/8ejVUcUqZKI.png); background-position: 0px -1053px; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; background-size: auto; display: inline-block; height: 16px; vertical-align: -3px; width: 16px;"></i></span><br />
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<span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #333333; display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">Then on July 26th I shared this: </span><br />
<span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #333333; display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">I can't believe Lily would be celebrating her first birthday two weeks from this Sunday... August 11, 2012 was the day she was born... a beautiful day that I wouldn't trade for anything...<br /><br />The time that I got with her.. the 9 months for m<span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline;">y pregnancy and the 18 days that she graced us here on earth after she was born.. she was worth any pain or sadness that I have experienced or continue to feel...<br /><br />She is missed beyond words.. FLY sweet girl.. ♥<br /><br /><a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-qVdFl64gt0" rel="nofollow nofollow" style="color: #3b5998; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-qVdFl64gt0</a></span></span><br />
<span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #333333; display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;"><br /></span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13408810744616327390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3427909322253415815.post-73958692573140323512013-08-02T20:34:00.000-04:002013-08-02T20:35:18.587-04:00Dusty pictures...<span style="font-size: large;">July 22nd I posted this on Lily's Facebook page: </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">Dusty pictures... </span><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">This may not make any sense to some of you and sadly.. perfect sense to others.. </span><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">We've been sanding walls and this has made the house dustier than normal.. it makes sense that pictures would get dusty, right?? </span><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #333333; display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">BUT.. I've never seen my angel daughter Lily Grace's pictures dusty until this past weekend..<br /><br />When all you have left are pictures and other material things after the loss of your child (and I'm assuming a spouse, parent, etc..) something as simple as their items getting dusty can be a real trigger to a grieving person..<br /><br />Why.. to think that pictures are the closest thing you have to seeing them and for dust to form on the items (from sanding or just time) is heart breaking.. It's just another reminder of how much time has passed since they left this world..<br /><br />In one week from today our daughter Lily Grace will be gone for 11 months.. enough time for dust to start settling on her stuff.. What a sad reality.. <i class="_4-k1 img sp_er534k sx_3c8e5b" style="background-image: url(https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/rsrc.php/v2/y4/r/8ejVUcUqZKI.png); background-position: 0px -1053px; background-size: auto; display: inline-block; height: 16px; vertical-align: -3px; width: 16px;"></i><i class="_4-k1 img sp_er534k sx_3c8e5b" style="background-image: url(https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/rsrc.php/v2/y4/r/8ejVUcUqZKI.png); background-position: 0px -1053px; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; background-size: auto; display: inline-block; height: 16px; vertical-align: -3px; width: 16px;"></i></span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">I can tell you that losing a child is 100 million times worse than you can dream or imagine that it would feel like... </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">I know... for 20 weeks prior to my daughters birth I had to face the reality that she may not make it so I had to face that... </span><br />
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<img height="640" src="https://fbcdn-sphotos-d-a.akamaihd.net/hphotos-ak-prn2/1075757_632663406744640_1417846185_n.jpg" width="548" />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13408810744616327390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3427909322253415815.post-32411555882062290992013-08-02T20:31:00.003-04:002013-08-02T20:31:57.766-04:00Sweet Lily right after birth..Posted on Lily's FB page July 19th:<br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">This was the first few minutes of Lily's life... I'd say of her story but her story began way before her birth.. </span><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">She was a beautiful baby with a head full of hair.. and she was a fighter from the first minute..</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">she fought hard for 18 days after she was born but she was a fighter long before she was born too because she fought to stay alive for the 9 months that she was living in my belly too... ♥ RIP sweet girl.. ♥</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">Never Forgotten sweet Lily Grace 8/11/12 - 8/29/12</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">This picture could represent the loss of a child for many reasons..</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">* custody issues</span><br />
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<span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #333333; display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">* child ran away...<br />*... or your child passed away..<br /><br />Those absences create obvious voids... again.. this picture says it all <i class="_4-k1 img sp_er534k sx_3c8e5b" style="background-image: url(https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/rsrc.php/v2/y4/r/8ejVUcUqZKI.png); background-position: 0px -1053px; background-size: auto; display: inline-block; height: 16px; vertical-align: -3px; width: 16px;"></i><i class="_4-k1 img sp_er534k sx_3c8e5b" style="background-image: url(https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/rsrc.php/v2/y4/r/8ejVUcUqZKI.png); background-position: 0px -1053px; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; background-size: auto; display: inline-block; height: 16px; vertical-align: -3px; width: 16px;"></i></span><br />
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<span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #333333; display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">I've always loved Canon in D.. most commonly played at weddings.. I think it is just an absolutely beautiful song and I think this version is a really unique twist to the song...<br /><br />This song makes me think of a soothing place.. a soft.. bea<span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline;">utiful..safe..soothing place.. maybe the kind of place where Lily and so many other angels play... I can't explain it..<br /><br />I just felt compelled to share it.. warning that the video is corny but 5 million people have viewed it.. the music is so worth listening to it.. Enjoy<br /><br /><a href="http://www.facebook.com/l.php?u=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.youtube.com%2Fwatch%3Fv%3DLV5_xj_yuhs&h=_AQHEmRib&s=1" rel="nofollow nofollow" style="color: #3b5998; cursor: pointer; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LV5_xj_yuhs</a></span></span><br />
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No.. This is not my ultrasound but this is an ultrasound of a very special person..<br /><br />Our Lily had some very special nurses at Kosair Children's Hospital and one of her very special NICU nurses by the name of Jill is now having a baby...<br /><br /><span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline;">Why am I sharing her ultrasound picture you ask... well she just announced this week that she is having a girl. She announced by sharing this very picture on her FB page.. notice the hairbow?<br /><br />I gave many of Lily's special nurses a hairbow to thank them for trying so hard to save our sweet girl.. the hairbow in this picture is her Lily Grace hairbow..<br /><br />Lily and this hairbow must really mean something special to her since she wanted to announce that she was having a girl by including our Lily Grace hairbow and it was so special for me to see this... thank you nurse Jill!! <i class="_4-k1 img sp_er534k sx_d20726" style="background-image: url(https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/rsrc.php/v2/y4/r/8ejVUcUqZKI.png); background-position: 0px -730px; background-size: auto; display: inline-block; height: 16px; vertical-align: -3px; width: 16px;"></i> She was blessed to have Jill and so many other wonderful nurses at Kosair <i class="_4-k1 img sp_er534k sx_91fad0" style="background-image: url(https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/rsrc.php/v2/y4/r/8ejVUcUqZKI.png); background-position: 0px -662px; background-size: auto; display: inline-block; height: 16px; vertical-align: -3px; width: 16px;"></i> I'll never forget them.. never!</span></div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13408810744616327390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3427909322253415815.post-77901343111185443382013-08-02T20:22:00.002-04:002013-08-02T20:23:49.036-04:00Sea Horse..<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">Posted on Lily's FB page on July 13th: </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">Thank you Lisa Warren for sending me this message! Y</span><span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #333333; display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">our Lily Ann is beautiful.. thank you for sharing this:<br /><br />"My husband I and started following your page about your daughter awhile back. We looked through all your photos and couldn't help but cry. Our daughter, Lily Ann was born Sept 20th and she too loves her seahorse. We cried because we felt so sorry for your loss, so sorry that your Lily had to endure so much in her short life and it really made us appreciate our daughter that much more that she was healthy. I just wanted to share this photo with you because it always reminds me of your daughter when I look at it. I've read all your posts and realize the grieving is far from over, I was just hoping that maybe my Lily could put a smile on your face, even if for a second. Your family is in our thoughts and prayers. God bless." **Yes her baby is doing very well.. she is fine**<br /><br />I hope it's okay that I shared your message Lisa.. it was too beautiful to not share your message and picture.. thank you for getting to know my Lily and thank you for thinking about us! <span style="font-size: x-small;"><i class="_4-k1 img sp_er534k sx_91fad0" style="background-image: url(https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/rsrc.php/v2/y4/r/8ejVUcUqZKI.png); background-position: 0px -662px; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; background-size: auto; display: inline-block; height: 16px; vertical-align: -3px; width: 16px;"></i></span></span><br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13408810744616327390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3427909322253415815.post-80674979626201353632013-07-13T01:57:00.000-04:002013-07-13T02:02:36.540-04:00Lily is still traveling... <span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">Lily's big sister Sarah surprised me today with this picture... </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">She wanted to take Lily Grace to Chicago... Ahh.. I'm so proud.. Thanks Sarah!!</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">She writes: "These were taken on the Cancun Riviera in Mexico. I was happy to be part of Lilly Grace's life, and I'm also happy to share these with you. Prayed for all of you while writing her name and shooting the pics."</span><br />
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<span class="fbPhotoTagList" style="background-color: white; color: #333333; display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;"><span class="fcg" style="color: grey;"><br style="color: #333333; font-size: 13px;" /><span style="color: #333333;">Thank you Brooke Meffert... here's what she said: "Here's the pic of sweet Lily's name in the sand at beautiful Siesta Key, FL (and it's the #1 beach in the US)!!!"</span></span></span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13408810744616327390noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3427909322253415815.post-51134846861360769912013-07-13T01:55:00.002-04:002013-07-13T01:55:38.974-04:00Lily's Open Heart Surgery Picture... :( Posted on Lily's Facebook page "Never Forget Lily Grace" on 7/11/13:<br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">Heads up.. I told you within the last few weeks that I would be sharing a picture of Lily after open heart surgery... I haven't been ready but I am.. It's graphic but it was our reality & so many other heart families reality too... Check back</span><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">Happy 11 month birthday Lily Grace.. I can't believe you were born 11 months ago today </span><i class="_4-k1 img sp_brfgo8 sx_3ef91b" style="background-color: white; background-image: url(https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/rsrc.php/v2/yO/r/rfFO0dqI-dD.png); background-position: 0px -888px; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; background-size: auto; color: #333333; display: inline-block; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; height: 16px; line-height: 18px; vertical-align: -3px; width: 16px;"></i><i class="_4-k1 img sp_brfgo8 sx_91991e" style="background-color: white; background-image: url(https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/rsrc.php/v2/yO/r/rfFO0dqI-dD.png); background-position: 0px -1857px; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; background-size: auto; color: #333333; display: inline-block; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; height: 16px; line-height: 18px; vertical-align: -3px; width: 16px;"></i><i class="_4-k1 img sp_brfgo8 sx_3ef91b" style="background-color: white; background-image: url(https://static.xx.fbcdn.net/rsrc.php/v2/yO/r/rfFO0dqI-dD.png); background-position: 0px -888px; background-repeat: no-repeat no-repeat; background-size: auto; color: #333333; display: inline-block; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; height: 16px; line-height: 18px; vertical-align: -3px; width: 16px;"></i><br />
<img height="640" src="https://sphotos-a.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-frc1/1002759_624849670859347_663780791_n.jpg" width="452" /><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">Our Lily Grace before and after open heart surgery.. </span><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">Open heart surgery is a reality for so many, including our Lily Grace.. </span><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;">Lily had up to an 80% chance of survival and many children that go through open heart surgery have an even higher survival rate so many kids can look like this and still survive while living a life with high quality.. </span><br style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;" /><span class="text_exposed_show" style="background-color: white; color: #333333; display: inline; font-family: 'lucida grande', tahoma, verdana, arial, sans-serif; line-height: 18px;"><br />You could see her heart beating through that plastic and yes.. her chest is left open.. The plan was to close it after a few days but it was never possible..<br /><br />This is just a glimpse into what heart families may experience.. Most families have a more positive outcome than our precious Lily.. she fought hard & so did the doctors, surgeons, and nurses for her to survive.. Her body just couldn't make it... she was a puzzle..<br /><br />Her scans showed strong heart function yet she couldn't survive without the extra support.. It was a big roller coaster of ups and downs..<br /><br />When she went into cardiac arrest and her heart stopped (twice).. They had direct access to her heart to save her.. It's unbelievable.. I have video too and you can see her heart pumping..<br /><br />Happy 11 month birthday in heaven sweet Lily Grace</span><br />
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